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Why do people keep telling me I'm quiet and shy?
I'm fine.
Why do people keep telling me I'm a stupid loser?
I'm fine.
Why do people keep asking me if I'm okay?
I'm fine.
Why do people keep wanting to help me?
I'm fine.

Why do I keep lying to myself?
I'm fine.
Am I really okay?
I'm fine.
Do I actually need help?
I'm fine.
Why do I keep lying to myself?
I'm fine.

I hate those words so much.
I'm fine.
They are a lie.
I'm fine.
I'm really not okay.
Not okay.
But who will listen and who will care?
I'm not okay.
Recently I've noticed how much I say "I'm fine."
When someone asks me if I need they're help, I say no, I'm fine.. When I really do need help. Lots of it. Or if somethings not right with me, I shrug it off and say I'm fine when I'm actually not. I just think it's easier not bother people with my own needs.. But I'm going to try to stop doing that now.. >.> I bet it annoys people..

Written by Me :)
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mysteriouskey Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Ojej ...
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TariaRobotnik Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2013
Saying 'I'm fine' was probably one of my worst habits as well. What hurts more is when people can't see past your mask. It feels like they love a fake smile better than the person who hides behind it. It hurts...it even got to the point where I used to say things like 'at least I have me. I can see my pain even if no one else can'. But trying to fool yourself will never work; at least not in my experience. I found something that made me laugh, it was the only way I could deal with myself until I crawled out of my dark mindset. And after a while, I emitted the once brief happiness I felt watching that person who made me laugh. And all at once, I found the light again.
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NayaSelenia Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:tighthug: <= this is for you (no matter if you accept it or not)
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012  Hobbyist
Awee, thank youu <3
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Karen-chanOVERDRIVE Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2012
I feel ya. I'm the same way, but unfortunatley I've made the resolve to say "I'm fine" more because the one person I'm closest to would never bother to care. Therefore, I can't see anyone else bothering to care. *sigh*
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012  Hobbyist
I'm sorry to hear :c I'm here if you need me. I'd love to help you anyway can.. I serious~ Just note me whenever you need someone to talk to <3
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Karen-chanOVERDRIVE Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012
Thanks, and same for me if you ever need someone to talk to. It's just hard and been going on for too long.
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2012  Hobbyist
Awee, thanks c:
And thank you for the watch too~ I hope you will like my future uploads c:
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Karen-chanOVERDRIVE Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2012
No problem. I love your poems~!
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2012  Hobbyist
Awee thanks so much~ ^^ if you have a topic or something you want me to write about, I'd be glad to do so~ :D
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Karen-chanOVERDRIVE Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2012
Thanks so much!! If I think of something, I will let you know. I like your style.
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2012  Hobbyist
Aww thanks c:
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WafflesxSyrup Featured By Owner May 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:iconmiseryplz: Omigosh....the first line and "who will care?" part gets to me......Amazing :dummy:
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner May 13, 2012  Hobbyist
:aww: Thanks, this means lot c:
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WafflesxSyrup Featured By Owner May 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
No problem :)
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Innalheid Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2011  Hobbyist Artist
same here. mostly the "who will care?" part
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deathernete Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
This is true somehow. Whenever someone asks me "How are you?" I always say that I'm fine or okay, or whatever positive. I never say I'm not okay. Saying that you're fine whenever you're not is not neccesarily calling for help. You're just in a bad mood and don't want to talk about it.
Lovely poem. So true. (:
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011  Hobbyist
Thank youu ~
And yeahh, I know exactly what you mean (:
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annieparreta Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel the same
sometimes its easier to lie to yourself
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2011  Hobbyist
Indeed.. =/
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thebonniescott Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2010
Jes, jes... very relatable. very ice work as well. :)
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2010  Hobbyist
Thank youu :D
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thebonniescott Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2010
no problem. :)
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Soupay Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010
-sniffle- that was really good :)

dont be afraid to say how you feel!:la:
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010  Hobbyist
:aww: Thanks :3
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Soupay Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010
Anytime! :glomp:
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Vampirella666 Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010
First two lines you say "I'm know"

Did you mean I'm fine or I know lol.

I hear ya though; used to be there as well. And then periodically have spaz attacks where I'd bitch how nobody knows how hard shit is for me --- wonder why? hahaha.

:heart: always stay strong.
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010  Hobbyist
Oh.. Supposed to be I'm fine.. ^^; I suppose I should fix that? xD

And yeah, haha. Fun stuff, huh?

Thanks for reading :3
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Vampirella666 Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010
Just thought I'd give ya a heads up on that one. No Probs; I was browsing newest poetry and... Well that's very similar to what I used to write so it struck as me something I should comment on. Since it reminds me of me; we all need to be grounded here and there. =)
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010  Hobbyist
That's cool (:
Did you happen to upload it on here?
I'd be happy to read it :D
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Vampirella666 Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010
Ooh I have no idea where it ended up getting... I know where my first rough draft went and I need to rewrite to actually being decent -_- my standards have changed greatly since I was 14 hahaha.

It was very different with the same general theme. And it was based on relationships.
The idea was that the first 4 stanzas covered a doctor's visit (standard 4 line stanza ABAB CDCD) and then the 5th and last stanza when into how even though the doctor says everything's fine; you always said everything's wrong with me.

I always thought it would be a lovely and charming and easily to relate to poem had I ever finished it =( But I will one day soon! Once my life calms down again back to writing we go haha.
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2010  Hobbyist
Haha well that sounds awesome :iconbiggrinplz:
And yeah lol, let me know when and if you finish it? :D:D
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Vampirella666 Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2010
TY =)

I will.... you know what would be better?

If you watched me. =P Shameless self-endorcement here.
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2010  Hobbyist
YaY~ Lol. Im watchin you now... O.o
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kuribu Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
i say the same thing most of the time too :/
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Xilent-Strawberry Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010  Hobbyist
Yeahh, it's just the easiest thing to say.. =/
Thanks for reading(:
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kuribu Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
np ^_^
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